1. Tener un blog. 2. Viajar fuera del país. 3. Tener un Smartphone. 4. Tener un computador. 5. Escribir un cuento.
6. Escribir una novela. 7. Escribir una canción.
8. Escuchar mi canción en la radio.
9. Escribir un guión para una película.
10. Escribir para un programa de televisión.
Well, a few minutes ago, I got scared to death... I learned that actually I left my computer in the lounge where anybody could take it and leave with my beautiful and real helpful gadget..it's not the first time I leave something behind, I lost a cellphone once and a wallet, and it is so usual that i don't even know where the hell I'm leaving my stuff...and having in mind a totally freak out when I lose something I should be extremely more careful about my stuff, specially my gadgets...and my clothes, my notebooks, my pens, and so on...
Well, yesterday there was not too much work, I thought I had to go to a workmate's house to work, but for some reason I decided (yes, I did) not to go, I decided to stay at home...and today well I had to say I was sleeping wich it's partially true, but what I did was doing part of my work for the next week, and it's mandatory for me to do it so...
Another guy came to my landlady house, and he's friend of one of my former friends and also we attended in the same secondary school, so it's refreshing talking to somebody like that...and more rain, last night were raining all night long...
Tomorrow it's not gonna be a regular day at work and Friday is not either...which kinda cool, but I don't know if it would take more energy to fulfill the work tomorrow, but at least it's gonna be a change in the rutine...fuck and I really need it, plus tomorrow it's gonna be a morning/afternoon day of work not the usual only-morning, which is also kind of weird...
And Friday as well is gonna be a morning/afternoon kind of day so fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, well at least when this hell twirl is over, it's going to be actually Fünf tage zu verlassen.
I'm afraid...there's something that may hurt me real bad...but I'm scared if I dare doing something about it I may end up or dead or broken, I'm the sum of my parts, every single physical and mental part of me, that's what define me and I don't wanna quit to any of them...is a big question...to die or being alive but just half of you...tricky big question...
Well putting the dark comments aside...I wanted to write about the day I came to live in this jungle... well of course...there was a first day I got here, but of course it wasn't the day I got here to live, that's a completely different history
I thought there was an easy way to go from Sincelejo to the jungle, I was so lucky I the road was dry at that time (it was April 27th) and there were one van ready to go, expensive of course, but at least it was what I was expecting...it was a tuesday...I left Sincelejo thinking about how much my life was changing, I was in another country just a few HOURS ago, I left my voluntary job in Sincelejo and I was leaving the person I loved, leaving this country as well...fuck but this was something I got to do...taking care of me, that was something I was looking forward since I finished college, but then the kidney stones, and some other factors prevented me to do it so...but that was exactly what I was thinking when I was leaving Sincelejo.
Yes, I was traveling to the jungle, it was like 2:30 when I left, I got here like 6:45 to 7, and trust me that was FAST, I talked to my new landlady and she told me there were no rooms available for me, but she had set her nephew's house so I could live there until her houses rooms were empty...I met the nephew and some nieces, they took me there to his house in a motorbike after having dinner of course, and then they took me to an Internet room, of course it was slow as hell...and then when I was coming back to the nephew's house (where there was a baby) I saw the billboard... BLACK TANGO... it shocked me that in the middle of this hell there could be a place named in such a poetical way, well it took months before I got in there but it was enough time to realize that even in the last corner of te world, there will be things able to surprise you.
Well, it's eleven days to leave this fucking town...well it will be eleven days if only my boss decides to keep his promises and let us go next week...but you never know he may change his mind in the last minute, well that depends on the moon, as far as I know.
Today I learned that actually there was a party this weekend ... and I didn't attend 'cause I heard in the mass last friday there was no party for this weekend but within two weeks, well it was ok..I understand that actually I'm not that party boy...but at least I could attend and eat, total and absolute fail...and the alcohol...so fucking fail.
But well, I used this weekend to complete part of the second fourth of the year and I just have to make the reports, sigh....well today it was a long, long day, something is wrong, I don't know if it's wrong with the computer, or if it's wrong with the wifi signal here in the school, my phone is working perfectly and it's helped me a lot not be out of the world by the weekend, but definitely something is wrong with the signal...I don't wanna look like villain, but that happened since they connect another school to our Interner service, and honestly I don't thing they can give good use of the service...you know facebook and hotmail are not exactly great use for some people for the internet.
Today I tried to take it as easy as I could...but again is hard, hard to stand some people that evidently don't want make any progress...they suckkk...and the worst part is they're making other people real smart and real good, really lazy, I only hope they get the fuck away from my path, they don't deserve anything coming from me...and I'm getting tired of playing the clown...is there any chance for me to succeed in this career? more when I'm planning to join a post-graduated course, that is actually kind of expansive...is this a good way to go? is it a good move? so many questions come to my head and I don't know the answers, I can't foretell what's coming in one, two or three years...I just wanna succeed and do things I like to do, at least I'm doing it on my own, and I'm not depending on anybody.