Black Tango

I'm afraid...there's something that may hurt me real bad...but I'm scared if I dare doing something about it I may end up or dead or broken, I'm the sum of my parts, every single physical and mental part of me, that's what define me and I don't wanna quit to any of them...is a big question...to die or being alive but just half of you...tricky big question...

Well putting the dark comments aside...I wanted to write about the day I came to live in this jungle... well of course...there was a first day I got here, but of course it wasn't the day I got here to live, that's a completely different history

I thought there was an easy way to go from Sincelejo to the jungle, I was so lucky I the road was dry at that time (it was April 27th) and there were one van ready to go, expensive of course, but at least it was what I was expecting...it was a tuesday...I left Sincelejo thinking about how much my life was changing, I was in another country just a few HOURS ago, I left my voluntary job in Sincelejo and I was leaving the person I loved, leaving this country as well...fuck but this was something I got to do...taking care of me, that was something I was looking forward since I finished college, but then the kidney stones, and some other factors prevented me to do it so...but that was exactly what I was thinking when I was leaving Sincelejo.

Yes, I was traveling to the jungle, it was like 2:30 when I left, I got here like 6:45 to 7, and trust me that was FAST, I talked to my new landlady and she told me there were no rooms available for me, but she had set her nephew's house so I could live there until her houses rooms were empty...I met the nephew and some nieces, they took me there to his house in a motorbike after having dinner of course, and then they took me to an Internet room, of course it was slow as hell...and then when I was coming back to the nephew's house (where there was a baby) I saw the billboard... BLACK TANGO... it shocked me that in the middle of this hell there could be a place named in such a poetical way, well it took months before I got in there but it was enough time to realize that even in the last corner of te world, there will be things able to surprise you.

Ferien

This days have been crazy, it turns out that the fucking town where I work is in holidays, well it's not like a holiday and it's more like a big party around a place where bullfighting takes places, yeah but to me it's or actually it was free days.

Last wednesday it was a hard day, we all thought it was gonna be a free day as well, but it wasn't, so we had to spend all morning but the last hour doing things we were not actually prepared to do, and oh fuck I think I lost a book yesterday, damn! well coming back to wednesday we took the vehicle that took us to Sincelejo again, and yes I decided it was a good time to go to the movies. WRONG. the movie was an old movie and it was horrible, just imagine it was with Traci Lords and it wasn't porn, yes I totally wasted my day or well actually it was my night.

Next day, Thursday well not that bad, the morning was pretty much watching TV coz (oh soprise) there was no Internet at home for some reason I don't actually understand, the real action took place in the afternoon, but actually I'm not kinda proud bout I did Thursday afternoon, starting at midday, but I think is part of some kind of internal search and I don't know if I've found what I was looking for. I was invited to a party in Montería, and giving a look to my wallet I knew I wasn't going anywhere.

Next Day, Friday, I got an email from the "university" where I was attending for my postgraduated course, and although I never attended to my second semester and I totally paid for my first one, they send me a letter telling me "Oh man, you owe us money" coz I didn't warned them I was not coming back. Plz! Gimmie a break so I just went there to make things clear in the morning, and in the afternoon I came back and well I Warned them with a letter, in any case if I'd have to pay that would mean only I would have to go back to college, and that's not bad news either, the only bad news is well, I have to pay and I wanted to save some money, but what the hell. That night I went to movies again and it was Black Swan and I was keen to watch it, but wait, the line was HUGE maybe coz the fucking Justin Bieber movie, so I had to wait from 7 pm til 9:35 pm to watch Black Swan, so I had time to do something, and I did, fast, easy and no strings attached. Watched Black Swan and I loved it.

Next Day, Saturday, I started the day sending a second more explicative letter to the univerisity pointing pretty much that since I'm in the middle of the jungle I can't afford tickets semimonthly to attend classes, whenever they fuck say there are classes, so fuck U(niverisity). Well the afternoon was well less interesting a couple callings, and oh my phone seems to be dying already, so it seems I gotta get a new phone already, what else I did? well that was pretty much it until night, I decided I wanted to dance, to take a break and I did, first I was waiting for a friend, but they never showed up, so I was free, the first place I went was pretty much empty and since I was playing the fucking fool over there, I decided to skip, to the next one, and yes it was more crowded, but I was alone, until somebody showed up to help me, to save me, so hot, and then it was beers, dancing, and sweat, pretty much in time to go home and congratulate my mom for her birthday at 2 am in the morning. Today Sunday I've been updating my blogs. Not so much, right, but at least I'm taking a break which it's what I should be doing, coz tomorrow, yes tomorrow I have to go back.

UPDATE: There's a chance not tomorrow but next tuesday I'll be going but let's wait and see.