Eine Nacht der Kerzen

This evening was a night of candles in this deeply retarded town placed in the middle of a stinky jungle. the day actually didn't start that bad, well actually it did. My landlady (somebody who is like a mom to me in this place) is left to Barranquilla, coz some uncle of hers died last night, or maybe because the won the local bingo, like the last time, when I suspect I paid for their tickets and they (she and her sister) won and they left me here with fever and flu, in a aweful ocasion I want to forget forever and ever... well they left this morning... and I left to the school where I was supposed to coordinate guys cleaning the streets... but there was chaos.

My boss is not in this town, and the people who is taking care of his functions is exactly like me...we're not doers, so the chaos was all over the place, well even when I'm not a doer, I know that actually I have to do things...and that was what happened today...well I took the people I had to coordinate and we did our job, and I had to spend my money to finish the labor...later lunch, and I think I don't stand the people who comes to have their meals in this house. I start to feel a deep rejection towards them...and  I know that's bad...but what can I do? and since I don't do a good fake, it's obvious they know I don't like them too much, what I hate the most is that they seem to have some priviliges and the quality of my food (when it's me who's paying for everything while they pay some of their debt), and it's SO FUCKING UNFAIR.

Well after lunch and some "socializing" with the sons of bitch, I went to sleep, and I woke up just to do my eveining role on the candles light...total failure...people I was suppose to take care of , they were out of control, I don't know how I could stand, and I know this is gonna go against me, I don't know if tomorrow, or maybe monday, my boss is gonna be so pissed when he finds out...and that's not the ugly part, my workmates are also thinking I'm that bad, maybe they think I'm the real responsible for what happened, but I'm just one of 24 people there, I don't think I have to take all the responsability, I don't think so...

Now, after watching tv and more socializing, after having a regular meal, (which I'm sure was much better for the highladers sons of bitch) I'm here and I wanna sleep, but I can't...

Erschrocken + Neun tage zu verlassen

Well, a few minutes ago, I got scared to death... I learned that actually I left my computer in the lounge where anybody could take it and leave with my beautiful and real helpful gadget..it's not the first time I leave something behind, I lost a cellphone once and a wallet, and it is so usual that i don't even know where the hell I'm leaving my stuff...and having in mind a totally freak out when I lose something I should be extremely more careful about my stuff, specially my gadgets...and my clothes, my notebooks, my pens, and so on...

Well, yesterday there was not too much work, I thought I had to go to a workmate's house to work, but for some reason I decided (yes, I did) not to go, I decided to stay at home...and today well I had to say I was sleeping wich it's partially true, but what I did was doing part of my work for the next week, and it's mandatory for me to do it so...

Another guy came to my landlady house, and he's friend of one of my former friends and also we attended in the same secondary school, so it's refreshing talking to somebody like that...and more rain, last night were raining all night long...

Tomorrow it's not gonna be a regular day at work and Friday is not either...which kinda cool, but I don't know if it would take more energy to fulfill the work tomorrow, but at least it's gonna be a change in the rutine...fuck and I really need it, plus tomorrow it's gonna be a morning/afternoon day of work not the usual only-morning, which is also kind of weird...

And Friday as well is gonna be a morning/afternoon kind of day so fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk, well at least when this hell twirl is over, it's going to be actually Fünf tage zu verlassen.