This is the end of the world...(as we know it)

Como siempre, algo malo sucede, justo cuando solo quería relajarme y descansar. Getting away from the fucking jungle I'm stuck in, pero no resultó tal y como yo esperaba. I got here yesterday after hours traveling, first through a dusty and destroyed road and then waiting in the slowest high road ever, and when I got here, well I decided to go out, and fuck I got a punch in my mouth...accidentally I got to say...but the worst is that it didn't worth at all.

I went to sleep frustrated, not even here in the land I'm supposed to be happy, to be comfortable, things go wrong, so maybe it's not where I am, maybe it's me, I am the wrong thing, I am screwing things around, everytime. Am I? Am I that horrible, that stupid, that jerk?

But well Saturday didn't turn out that well either...the morning I had to play the messenger again, messenger for the jungle people, (yes, I had to spend lots of money to get the hell out of there) and I wanted to do some plans for the evening, but fuck, that didn't go that well either, I went for lunch and some drinks for my best friend's love interest, it was a very bad idea, but things seemed to be great so far, and then at the end of the night, I was a betrayer and a liar, I don't wanna talk about details, but if I'm a betrayer and liar, I have to say that that one free of sins, throw the first stone, I'm sure my former best friend is NOT free of sins and now he's staring at me as big big liar, the worst thing ever, C'mon. I tried to convince him NOTHING bad happened but he doesn't wanna hear, he doesn't wanna listen, and I'm done with going after him attempting to explain, at least he should remember the wrong things he's done...but the fuck with him, it's so sad, he's actually the only friend I ever had, the only real friend, real,  I mean nobody else had been there for me just like he's been, but even when it hurts, I'm not gonna take that weight on my shoulders, if he doesn't wanna see me again for some kind of missunderstanding, the fuck with him, the fuck with everybody else, anyway in the jungle I'm alone and nobody's there to support me... but it hurts, it hurts a lot, losing my best and only friend, I don't want to lose his friendship, but all came down to this, and at least for now, I gotta leave things this way, Good News? He's still my "facebook" friend, but that's not gonna last, if only he could listen to me, if only I could talk to him, I wanna talk to him and fix things, but again he doesn't wanna listen.

Now I'm on my way to hell again, I just wanna say I'm sorry if I did something wrong, I'm sorry, but it's not the fucking case, I want to be heard, just a simple mistake, wanting to be in company, coz I hate being alone, but I didn't do anything wrong, I just want him to listen...but the world is not a perfect place and here I am. Now I am the betrayer and liar, two names more for my resume of horrible things I am.