Decisiones difíciles.

Bueno debo decir que en los últimos dos días he pasado por una disyuntiva bastante fuerte. La decisión de comprar un nuevo equipo, un nuevo teléfono celular representó mucho más trabajo mental, de lo que yo hubiese podido imaginar... tenía claro que ya no quería un BlackBerry, pero definitivamente quería un teléfono Android (with Google) soy un fanático de Google y creo que empezaré con un teléfono sencillo pero suficientemente eficiente, muy buena relación costo/beneficio. 


La razón del tormento era que había otro teléfono con ciertas características que lo hacían bastante apetecible, pero no, por lo menos ahora no, y me duele no poder darme este lujo pero bueno las cosas se consiguen poco a poco. Y pues tal vez si ahorrara y esperara un mes... pero el próximo mes tengo unos compromisos bastante fuertes, por tanto no puedo estar dándome esos lujos y lo otro es que DETESTO endedudarme, no soy un tipo que le guste ir prestando por la vida y mucho menos cuando existe la opción clara de no hacerlo. En este momento opto por un celular que me da lo que necesito y que no es TAN costoso, aunque debo comprarle algunas cositas para protegerlo y mejorarlo, bueno la verdad esta mañana había tomado otra decisión, pero ya que es hora de terminar con el insomnio y con mi etapa BlackBerry de una vez por todas.

Without my BlackBerry

Yes, this morning I got the fantastic and awesome idea: I wanted to update my fucking smartphone, my blackberry... yes but the greatest was that after updating my usual EDGE configuration changed into "edge" and surprise! no data available, no twitter, no messenger, no facebook, NOTHING

Yes, I think I'm addicted to my phone but fuck, I feel totally powerless being unable to fix a piece of plastic and screws, so powerless... I'm not thinking clearly and I'm doing erratic...it's not fare.

I think that maybe I just need to change my phone, after all it's about time...

What I fear the most is having to come back to that horrible hell without my only source of entertainment: my BlackBerry Tour 9630.  :'(

The Next Step To Follow

I've been alone for a while, a long while and I don't know if somehow I'm meant to be with somebody, somebody to be with me supporting me, but for some reason I think that I'm good, when they know me first, but once they get to know me, it seems they don't like me anymore. Now I'm dating someone, very weird I gotta say, not in a bad sense, weird in a way that it's someone who doesn't follow the same rules when trying to find someone to date.

Last weekend we were together spending time in a kinda risky situation...this weekend we both are here in this town. Yesterday I left after midday, I was expecting the travel, long travel from the jungle, dust, mud, water, and then rain, the rain is coming very early when it usually comes at mid april or something, it's march and it's starting to rain almost everyday. We were afraid that the rain might fuck up the travel, but it didn´t.

Some of the guys who were with me in the car are kinda funny, I wish I was so outgoing. Then after 5 hours maybe more, I got here, this house, where I'm so happy so easy, where I can find myself, away from the jungle and the consequences of being living there. It's like I never left, I was in the motorbike watching the houses and the businesses and nothing feels different, everything feels the same.

Then I wanted to update my cellphone, but I couldn't so I decided to go to the mall and watching a movie, with my date, so we were, mistake number one, the movie sucked, sanctum, please, mistake number two, we didn't have a plan to be together that night. I like being in this house sleeping here, I didn´t want to be away from here, you know?

So no plans to fuck, no plans for the night, I wasn't in the mood for beer or alcohol, so what was next? go back home to sleep, so then I woke up this morning, I did some laundry and finally I could update my phone, it was like discovering America, I learnt a lot of things, and I got the app I was looking for my phone, though I want to change it, a change for an Android, the only bad thing is no PIN :( I was getting used to it.

About my friend, he accepted me back on BBMsn, I congratulated him for his graduation, but I understand he doesn't wanna see me yet, but I wanna insist, maybe someday we can talk together, and made things up.

I got some of the stuff I needed, and again it's like money was an illusion but I gotta keep on with it. maybe saving some, maybe making a plan, but I want some things I need, though I know those things won't make me happy, experiences are, and being in the jungle itself is an experience, the only thing is I want to be able to fit better, and do my job better, last week there was my enemy trying to throw the dirt on me, he's powerful, it's gonna be hard, almost impossible to beat him, but let's see what's coming.

And again it's interesting how some people want to contact you just because you have something they may use, but I´ve grown up and I'm not the same, I think that the boy and the teenager are behind, it's time to be a man.