Yes, now that I finally I don't have internet on my cellphone, I've decided to wait one full month to adquire my new one... but I haven't decided yet if I'm gonna get a new BB, or an Android phone, I think the BB is a best idea since the companies are offering better and cheaper plans for BlackBerry than for Android which is kinda unknown here in Colombia, so I'm gonna take it easy... it's gonna be a quarantine, 40 days of reflexion, my own easter lol, I saw it coming anyway. This BB is not mine, it was a gift, but I never felt it mine...
Well I'm back in the jungle again... the way back here was as usual very interesting, and also scary, I woke up yesterday 4:30 in the morning, and at 5:45 I was ready...but since everybody got their own agenda...we actually left by 8:30, then after two hours we got to the place where the water destroyed the road, so we had to get on a boat, and after 45 minutes of an awful trip... we got land again... and also a workmate who was in the car with us, got sick.
And now first day in the jungle with no cellphone, at least I'm free, I've got nobody bothering me, I'm free again...let's see for how long, this is the first day of the quarantine, 39 and a half to go...
1. Montag. Ich entwurf billigen Whisky.
2. Dienstga. Ich traf jemanden. Grosse Sitzung. Keine Antwort. Kurzfilme.
3. Mittwoch. Grosse Zeit. Supermarkt.Cartagena.
4. Donnerstag. Ich zerstörte mein Handy. Ich bin ein dummer.
5. Freitag: Tolu.Ende der "Beziehung" (schliesslich)
6. Samstag: Der Club der brochennen Herzen.
7. Suntag: Ich bin hier.
Yes, this morning I got the fantastic and awesome idea: I wanted to update my fucking smartphone, my blackberry... yes but the greatest was that after updating my usual EDGE configuration changed into "edge" and surprise! no data available, no twitter, no messenger, no facebook, NOTHING
Yes, I think I'm addicted to my phone but fuck, I feel totally powerless being unable to fix a piece of plastic and screws, so powerless... I'm not thinking clearly and I'm doing erratic...it's not fare.
I think that maybe I just need to change my phone, after all it's about time...
What I fear the most is having to come back to that horrible hell without my only source of entertainment: my BlackBerry Tour 9630. :'(
Have you ever felt that you have done something totally cool, extraordinary, but at the end you feel an empty void in your heart? Probably not, lol, but yes, the holy week's just begun and it's made me realize that maybe we're not made, or at least I'm not made to be happy...I just can't find the perfect mix of things I want...
Perfect sex? yes, it's possible, been there, you can find the right person, the right time, to do exactly want you wanna do in sex, everything you could possibly want, even the post-sex minutes... but once you leave the room, it's all gone... no friendship, no contact, nothing, or well, at least the memory... no strings attached...
And love on the other hand... but something lacks, love or sex? love or attraction? what's the right rate? But at the end of the day, something keeps missing, maybe it's just me, maybe I'm just wrong...
